Voice of Love

It was a month ago, almost to the day, when I experienced my first health miracle. A cyst that had been growing rapidly for years, that was likely leading to kidney removal surgery this summer, had shrunk. A few days later, another organ, showing precancer year after year for six years, had a clean bill of health for the first time ever. It was a sweet moment. Most certainly an answer to prayers and felt like a gift from our Heavenly Father. I was going to get a three-year break from ultrasounds, colonoscopies, biopsies. I had just one more exam at the end of June, a routine mammogram, and then I was done! Last Thursday I went in and that night received the results. Now I’m no stranger to having to go back because the radiologist didn’t have a clear x-ray. This time was different. They found something on the x-ray and more x-rays are needed to determine if a biopsy is needed. I thought to myself, “Seriously? Three weeks? Three weeks was all I had to not have to think about my health?”.

The following morning I went to God in prayer. More than a girlfriend or even my husband, God is who I go to to process what’s happening in my life. The truth is, I’ve learned when I try to process on my own, when I try to make sense of what’s happening without his guidance, it’s a mess. Without God there’s stress, worry, fear, fatigue, frustration, hopelessness. I needed God to give me the perspective I didn’t have. From my point of view, I was tired and frustrated.  Why more tests? Why health again? So I went to him. My first words were a confession. There’s something freeing about going to God and giving him your raw feelings. He knows what’s in our hearts. It’s not like I could hide from him that I was frustrated and feeling let down. Getting those feelings out, that by itself was taking some of the pain, laying it at his feet, and feeling him remove that from my heart. 

Then came the questions. God, how do you see this? What do you want me to know? Friends, I immediately felt his love. Hearing the voice of God, it is the best thing I’ve ever experienced. When you hear God, his voice is so completely full of love. You hear it in your heart and it fills you as you hear it. It comforts you. It is a tangible shift in your emotions that brings light to darkness. I felt God speak his love over me. That this was just another part of my life story he would see me through. Regardless of the outcome, it was going to be ok. And I do mean regardless. 

The deal I made with the Lord years ago, my life is his to use as he pleases. If breast cancer is part of my life story, then each moment will be used to point to his goodness. God has seen my family and me through so much. The wounds he’s healed in me. The wounds I know he will heal in my children. The hope, strength, comfort, joy, love he offers. Once you’ve experienced the fullness of God’s love, there’s nothing you won’t do for him, for others to hear about and experience for themselves the life changing love of God. I encourage you, if you haven’t met Jesus yet, don’t wait a moment longer. Click here and meet him. Seek him in prayer, share with him any pain or burdens you’re carrying, ask him to speak with you and tell you how he feels about you. You will hear love and encouragement unlike anything you’ve ever heard before.  

If you’d like to learn more about prayer or hearing God’s voice, you can find additional resources below: 

Prayer: calvarylg.com/prayer

Hearing God’s voice: Blog Post

Blessing you with the joy, peace, hope and love found in Jesus.